Well it's pretty early jeje and i've just finished some stuff from work... but you know what i really like what i do and i'm so so happy to be there it's been the most fantastic 3 months at any job i've ever had...

And ... uuhhm... ok i've been sick lattely and all i really wanted to do on friday was to get home, put on my PJ's make a nice, warm tea and get in to mu bed to watch some movies.... yeah right!!! Well it didn't exactly went that way... i got home to an angry mother, 'cause she just had a fight with my grandma'... (by the way that tears me apart) and she started to take everything out on me... again, but i was cool, i was listening, and i was quiet right? but then the conversation started to take an ugly turn 'cause she satrted to call me on things that were ok before so... i had two choices stay and fight like always or leave... so i did and i guess it was the best thing to do 'cause it really hurts to fight my mom really, i mean i've tried to talk to her for years... i mean i'm the only one on her side allways and what does she do? she didn't talked to me the whole weekend! ... Until she had to tell me that my uncle got sick and it's in the hospital, he has some trouble with kiddney stones and he's being opereated tomorrow, i'm gonna send him some good vibes so he gets better...

I don't get how this so called family works you know... (sigh) well whatever i've decide to be happy and it is really working for me it's just there are some times like this weekend when i really start feeling sad again and i know i've got to fight every single day not to feel like that and I WILL because i really like who i am when i'm happy.... i think after all i've been through i deserve it!

So here i am sitting on a pile of clean clothes on my very very messy room happy to be alive and be me.

Good morning! and you know what you should try it some time just to be you, be greatfull and be happy.

Still here. Still dancing

 Well here I am once again, many many things good and bad have happened.

I don't really know were to start, I guess that why i was putting this on the "to do" list but never really get to actually "do it".

I think it's just that here i write not only what's in my mind but in my heart and soul and I guess I didn't wanted to take all the mess that's inside out on the open...

My best friend constantly tell me I need to be alone for a while and I think it's true, even though I'm not used to it and don't really like it so much... I guess that's how you grow up... on your own.

Through this past months my life has been a complete roller coaster ride, I've up and down... lower than you could imagine , I've been sad, mad REAL mad, so depressed, melancolic and a whole bunch of other fellings of that sort...

But I've been very very blessed with some other things, persons, situations, too.

I was very very disappointed by someone I thought would never hurt me, but he did... real bad and i had to get it out of my sistem 'cause it's no good inside. But I do beleive in hope too and I've been developing this thing... intuition(we should allways listen to our selves) and I confident that everything has a solution except death...

Speaking of which... the worse thing ever happened, My Grandpa suddently died on november 25 ... gees, I'm sorry i gotta go, uhmmm I'll carry on latter, I'm kindda sad again.

Still here. Still dancing

(even though for moments I really thought of stopping)

I MISS YOU!!!

Still here. Still dancing.

I almost for got...

Thank God i found you again

Thanks for keeping that spark

Thank you for not being perfect

'cause otherwise you wouldn't be real

Thank God we're both mature enough

to keep talking our way out of troubles

It's good to have you back

I've missed you.

Still here. Still dancing.